week month 10!
I haven't talked about WW for awhile, not for months in fact. I'm sure there's some part of me that is worried I'll jinx it by discussing it too much, which is silly. And I also know that if you have never struggled with weight issues, talking about it seems boring and self-centered, so feel free to pass on by this post.
That said, I'm thrilled to have lost nearly 40 lbs since I began back in January, and am still losing the last few, at a very slow rate. This is so much more than a program, it's a reasonable way of looking at food, exercise, and body issues, and it works!
In many ways, I've gotten used to the new me, though not completely. Fitting into smaller sizes is a lot of fun, and I still sometimes don't recognize myself when I catch a glimpse passing a mirror or big window. I've conquered a lot of old habits, have a greater understanding of why I have struggled so this past decade, and have learned to take better care of myself in ways other than with food.
But there's still a lot of work to do. I realized this week that, mentally speaking, I have a loooong way to go. I faced this move with a bit of trepidation since in the past, a big change like a move or deployment (and these have been yearly events for me over the past 8-9 years) usually brings along with it a bit of a weight gain. So I was very mindful of that this time.
Our last shipment of household goods just arrived from Hawaii after packing out our house 2 months ago, including our bathroom scale. Smart me decided to hop on and check my weight real quick, even though I knew I had lost some more weight because my clothes are looser and I'm down another size in jeans.
The blippin' thing said I had gained. GAINED. I stepped on and off repeatedly in a slight panic, and it was UP anywhere from 10-20 lbs.
Did I stop to think it could have been jiggled around or messed up by being toted across the Pacific Ocean and entire U.S.? Or that it needed to be reset or have batteries replaced? Or that it was completely unreasonable to think I could have gained that much weight and somehow not noticed it in how my clothing fit?
No. Instead, I berated myself for awhile, thinking things like, "This is what you get for not weighing in so long!" (as if something magical happens when you weigh every day) or "You shouldn't have had those cookies!!"
Yes, it seems ridiculous now. And I got it all figured out, scale fixed and compared to the one at the gym, and I am actually down a few more lbs. But it's amazing how easily that 'switch' in my brain is flipped and I am back to old thinking, old patterns. Sigh..still a work in progress, in so many ways.
But let me end on a light note. My kids pointed out this commercial to me and I love it! So me. My best advice to anyone wanting to get more active is the same message in this Kaiser Permanente commercial...."Find Your Thing."
You don't need special equipment, complicated classes, or a trainer to get in better shape (though if you like those sorts of things, by all means, go for it!) For many years now, most days find me putting on my walking shoes and taking a 30-45 minute walk, regardless of the weather. It's doable for me, and I enjoy it. Some days I add in weight training or pushups/situps, but the main part of my "workout" since I was about 20 yrs old has been just... walking. Plus, I can see myself still taking walks when I'm 75 years old, the pole dancing or Zumba classes...not so much. ;)